Hm this is an interesting one... I guess I should figure out what my mood is first- possibly a mix of anxious with tired and a little sadness at the thought of being away from home for another month or so.. also, a bit scared after watching ghost adventures on the travel channel and finding my backdoor open on my way into our creepy basement to do laundry. Also, I'm still a wee ill-feeling as I'm getting over one of the worst colds I've ever had. As I scroll through my entire music library, a few different songs stick out to me.
One is Cruel Summer by Ace of Base, because I keep thinking about how close summer is and I want to be excited about it, but my boyfriend stayed in Columbus while I was in Cleveland last summer and he even got offered a job not too far from his house in Cleveland making more money than he does now and doing easier work and he is not interested in it. Yet he tells me money and work are the reasons it makes more sense for him to stay on campus in the summer. He wants to stay there again this summer and I just think of how miserable I was last summer and how much I hate long distance relationships and this song in a way describes that mood I've been in for the past year dreading his dumb stubborn insistence on living in Columbus.
Also, Wrong Baby Wrong by Martina McBride sticks out as it's a song that definitely helps me feel better when I'm sad or anxious or upset with myself or even just overwhelmed by what's going on in general. It's a really great song to make you feel like everything's not really as bad as it seems. I highly recommend it to anyone who's like me and likes to listen to music when you're feeling sad or upset or just thoughtful.
Getting into You by Relient K is another one that pretty much always applies to my mood as I am constantly trying to strengthen my relationship with God and this song always makes me feel like God is telling me something. Right now, as I imagine hearing the song, I feel like He is telling me that He loves me and wants me to be happy and that if I trust in Him and return His love, everything will be okay.
I'd also add Matt Nathanson's Pretty the World to my list as it's something I'm kind of feeling right now as I dread going back to school and to work and wonder what the point of everything is and need to be reminded of the point and "how pretty the world is". It's a song I sing in my head a lot as I am constantly indecisive and regretful even after I think I've made a decision. I often lose focus and drive and purpose and wonder if it's all worth it and if I want to be where I am or if I'd rather just give up and take the easy way out, but I just need to see the beauty in things and the positive effects of my hard work and determination to see how great my life and how pretty my world is.
I am probably not going to be able to choose just one song. And you're lucky I narrowed it down to these... But I am extremely tired and I apologize for any run-on sentences and grammatical errors, etc. I just promised myself I'd write every day during Lent and I am trying to stick to it.
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